T0RN.TAKiN ALL MY ENERGY

wanting more than anything
for things to go back
to the way they used to be
been so open with everything
yet.he can't tell me one thing
what should i think?
a part of me feels
that i am getting played
another feels this is just his way
of being sure
i know i have always been selfish
but why is it all about you?
zero consideration of my feelings
not the person i used to love
someone T0TALLY different
wasn't expecting the same person
.in some aspects.
but this person
i gotta learn
honestly.i don't like it
wanna be with the person
who smiled.loved.lived[freely]
i am drained.confused.torn
what to do?
we do not have the time
you think we do
we cannot play and wait around
.life is too short.
gimme something.anything
i can work with
cuz right now
i am feeling like
i am on a one way street
&&& that isn't love