Br0kEnHeArTeD.

toniightt gave me the confirmation
i needed to know
for suree
that i need a VACATi0N.
&& ima take one
somewhere far.where i dont know anyoneee
my heartt has enduredd muchh moree than it can take
my pride && ego cannot stand the humilitation
so ima get away
to clear my mind && heart
three words to describe me right now
lonely.scared.confused
three emotions that i do not handle well
they say.if you love something, let it go
if it comes back, its yours
A L0T easier said than done
its sad that i cant coexist
in the world that i built
with myyy everythiinggg
functioning is impossible
love is more than just
a four lettered word.silly emotion
to me
it is S0 MUCH M0RE
&&& i am gonna do
WHATEVER iT TAKES
to keep it

Crossroad.

at the moment, i am faciing my biggest challenge to datee
question.what is worth sacrificing_friiendss or boyfriiend?
i used to tell myself i would NEVER choose a guyyy over my friiendss
&& i have prided myself on being an amaziingg friiendd
to all of those i hold close to my heart
but what is a girl to do?
the saying is s0o0o true.
_never say never_
i have asked myself a number of questions in the quest to find my answer
1)who is gonna keep me warm at night?
2)who has been there through all my shit?
3)why cant i be happy, if they are?
4)how could i live without him?
5)if i should let go, why is my heart still holding on?
the list goes on and on. trust me

so much in my mind, not enough space

now the question is
am i gonna listen to my heart.mind.soul
or my friiends, who have no idea that he dwells in my soul?
a decision that is creating so much turmoil
it is tearing me apart
my friiendss are my heartt
but he HAS my hearttt
so doesnt that mean he has control over it?
he knows me better than anyone
looking in to my eyes, he can read my soul
the ways he has been there for me are countless
N0 0NE can begin to fathom the bond we have
i truly believe he is my soulmate
our love is so deep, i can not think of one word
or any combination of words to explain it
it is something only he and i can comprehend
i know the answer seems to be apparent
but i am so afraid to be called a hypocrite
that i am missing out on .trueee looovvveee.
super confused
stay tuned. . .